One of those lonely, frustrating, busted up days.
I'm glad I started blogging again because it feels good to be able to talk to you all and know that there are other people out there just as lonely as me. But sometimes I really wish I could talk to my friend about this. But I'm afraid she'll look at me differently. I know she would never judge and she's been through some crap as well but I think I just want people to see me the way I want to be seen. As a normal, happy, upbeat person. Just sometimes it gets so difficult to keep suppressing everything. idk idk, guess I just needed to let that out!
Maybe it's just because I STILL don't have any scales, so all I can do is hope that the number will be smaller when I next weigh in. Which will hopefully be tomorrow, if I can buy scales today.
We also have the hospitality training at work today. They take a few of us out for dinner and we observe what good hospitality looks like. God only knows how much I'm going to have to eat. And my friends at work are all big drinkers. I mean, I drink a lot sometimes too but I've been trying to cut down so tonight is probably going to be pretty boozy. Maybe it's a good think I can't weight myself before and after. That would be depressing.
On a lighter note, my jeans feel a lot bigger than before. WIN. And my belt now buckles two holes further than before :D about darn time.
Hope you're all having a good day,
stay strong!
Rachel x
p.s. There's a tumblr I've been following for a while, by this girl called Tricia Gosingtian, she's a fashion blogger and photographer and she posts pictures of all her outfits on tumblr. Her clothes are amazing and she is really beautiful. Check her out: