One of those lonely, frustrating, busted up days.
I'm glad I started blogging again because it feels good to be able to talk to you all and know that there are other people out there just as lonely as me. But sometimes I really wish I could talk to my friend about this. But I'm afraid she'll look at me differently. I know she would never judge and she's been through some crap as well but I think I just want people to see me the way I want to be seen. As a normal, happy, upbeat person. Just sometimes it gets so difficult to keep suppressing everything. idk idk, guess I just needed to let that out!
Maybe it's just because I STILL don't have any scales, so all I can do is hope that the number will be smaller when I next weigh in. Which will hopefully be tomorrow, if I can buy scales today.
We also have the hospitality training at work today. They take a few of us out for dinner and we observe what good hospitality looks like. God only knows how much I'm going to have to eat. And my friends at work are all big drinkers. I mean, I drink a lot sometimes too but I've been trying to cut down so tonight is probably going to be pretty boozy. Maybe it's a good think I can't weight myself before and after. That would be depressing.
On a lighter note, my jeans feel a lot bigger than before. WIN. And my belt now buckles two holes further than before :D about darn time.
Hope you're all having a good day,
stay strong!
Rachel x
p.s. There's a tumblr I've been following for a while, by this girl called Tricia Gosingtian, she's a fashion blogger and photographer and she posts pictures of all her outfits on tumblr. Her clothes are amazing and she is really beautiful. Check her out:
Thanks for the advice; I never know how to act around guys.
ReplyDeleteI cannot wait until my pants start to feel loose...I'm super jealous.
All my support,
Dainty
I always feel conflicted about talking to people about my problems. On the one hand, friends should be there to comfort you when you're feeling down, but there's always the fear that they won't understand and judge you, or that you're burdening them too much... I suppose you can only decide based on the person. If your friend has experienced similar things, they might be able to help you, and you don't have to divulge every detail of your life, either. Either way, you still have people here who understand.
ReplyDeleteDon't fret too much about weighing though... you're clearly losing judging by how your clothes fit, and usually that's always more accurate :)
(Thank you for the kind and supportive comments on my blog <3 I hope that you can feel less lonely tomorrow)
Thanks for sharing Tricia Gosingtain's tumblr with us <3
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